In the name of GOD:
Lately I feel like I've been falling back into anxiety. A couple instances where I waited at night for my girlfriend to get home and she didnt text me in time cause she got caught up in a conversation with her roommates seemed to ignite the spark.
Then recently I went to watch a movie and couldn't focus because my girlfriend stopped at the store on her way back from school and I just let my mind focus on how many minutes went by and whether she should be done. It was just a really bad feeling..
GOD help me.. GOD willing I can get rid of this anxiety once and for all. Sometimes I feel like giving up my girlfriend is the only way but I could never do that, it would just kill us both, if anything. I don't feel that's the proper way of solving my own problem.
It's hard to stay busy when you feel your girlfriend needs to give you attention "all of a sudden". I have this theory that when I go into "needy mode" all of a sudden that all my girlfriend's texts/responses seem "cold" (even though she says she thought I was joking all along). I don't know.. but the way I end up seeing it is that she just doesn't care enough (or I tell myself maybe shes trying to make me "stronger").
ugh...
GOD help me.
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I am in my early 20's and starting to feel the effects of anxiety &depression. Fortunately I have not had more than two or three anxiety attacks but immediately I started looking into methods to be rid of any of these debilitating feelings. This is to log my own progress as well as be an example for those who need to help themselves as well.
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