Pillar Three

Tonight feeling a little down and anxious I decided to go on and read Pillar Three after Two since Two was about not taking medicine and I don't take any medicine.

As usual, I started with the "Nine Pillars Visualization" which is Mr. Linden talking to you as you try to relax as much as possible and you image your subconscious as a "cloud in a blue sky" and you give it reassuring words to make it bigger (then I imagine it coming back into my mind).

I went on to read the third pillar which says:

  
• DO NOT RESEARCH YOUR ANXIETY CONDITION
      
• Don't go to the library to read about it
  
• Don't talk to anyone about it
  
• After reading The Linden Method Manual put it away
  
• There is a section named "Physiology of Anxiety" which Linden says NOT to read and in fact it is a test for you to see if you can overcome wanting to read it

This seems to be good advice, and let me say why... In the past I use to do things that would make me worry until a time came where I was "cleared" of that worry because at a certain point I'd find out, as a fact, that I was worrying about nothing. I did this repeatedly over the course of a year or two not learning from my mistake.

Whenever I started to worry, I'd "google it". I did so much googling, and some answers I found made me feel better, but I wouldn't stop there, I'd keep googling and find answers that didn't make me feel so good. Thank GOD after all this time I am not too worried about that "thing" anymore but it was really a horrible thing to go through month after month.

This is why I hope that avoiding "thinking, researching, asking" about anxiety will make it seem, in the end, like a condition that never existed. Something we made in our minds, but it never really existed..